{"id":170,"date":"2026-06-08T07:00:00","date_gmt":"2026-06-08T07:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/?p=170"},"modified":"2026-06-11T09:49:00","modified_gmt":"2026-06-11T09:49:00","slug":"anonymous-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/anonymous-3\/","title":{"rendered":"Z \/ Anonymous"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I can&#8217;t live despite my body.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I inhale and hold \u2013 searching for stillness, but the static spreads from chest down to my fingertips.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I hold still, as my lips utter and sputter. I am productive, producing. Surfacing, without exhaling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I exhale, despite myself, and feel the weight of my eyelids, shoulders, head sinking.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">There is more in me \u2013 I swim through the static towards the transparency of my goals. There is a surface, right?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I inhale and hold \u2013 and my body floats on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-buttons is-layout-flex wp-block-buttons-is-layout-flex\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-button has-custom-width wp-block-button__width-100 is-style-outline is-style-outline--1\"><a class=\"wp-block-button__link has-white-color has-text-color has-background has-link-color has-medium-font-size has-custom-font-size wp-element-button\" href=\"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/see-the-provocations\/\" style=\"background:linear-gradient(203deg,rgb(85,195,220) 0%,rgb(35,35,48) 38%,rgb(43,180,211) 100%)\">see the PROVOCATIONS!<\/a><\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I can&#8217;t live despite my body. I inhale and hold \u2013 searching for stillness, but the static spreads from chest down to my fingertips. I hold still, as my lips utter and sputter. I am productive, producing. Surfacing, without exhaling. I exhale, despite myself, and feel the weight of my eyelids, shoulders, head sinking. There &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/anonymous-3\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Z \/ Anonymous<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":251,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"gallery","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-170","post","type-post","status-publish","format-gallery","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-provocation","post_format-post-format-gallery"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/170","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=170"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/170\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":388,"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/170\/revisions\/388"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/251"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=170"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=170"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.provocations.online\/practices-of-study\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=170"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}